HAHAHHA!
"half the shit you learn in school for math doesnt apply to your future. the math that you are studying now will only be useful if you want to be a computer genius like Bill Gates.." -(my dad)
lol... it all happened when my dad came into my room to only find me studying yes, math. he then said the above. haha! but dont you think its true? whats the point in learning bearings, trigo and algebra? lol...aiight...gonna go noW! x)

This is the song, lalalala, ELMO SONG! x)
LOVEYYYYYYYYYY DOVEYYYYYYYYYYYY!

This is for you, John Ji:
Baby I just can't wait Till I see your face,
Chase away this lonliness inside

2 more days to the Vestax Extravaganza over at Phuture. My routine is set, and I need to perfect it. Hope eveything goes well. Anyways peeps, I've only 20 invites left. Please let me know how many you need before Thursday? They're pretty limited. =P It's something you won't wanna miss. Great music, great people, great fun ;) Venue: Phuture. Entry Time: Before 10pm.

Please please please lemme know how many invites you need :) Josh, bring Miss "K" along :)

hehehee :D time for school now, then it'll be tuition wit Andrew at 7.30pm over at AudioSports. Shucks, I think my high fever killed some of my braincells. I can't seem to speak proper english and think straight. Ugh :(

SHOUTOUTS TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!

Fare de well Lorraine, my childhood friend. Hope you certainly are much happier now that you're up there. Bon voyage.. No more pains, no more depression. No more voices, no more medicines. Yes, bon voyage my dear friend. I'll see you in time to come up at the gates. In the mean time, say "Hi" to the Creator for me will ya? Take care my friend, you'll surely be missed by everyone. Your music, your voice. You'll always be remembered.

Since monday , Yckss Sec 4 N students are entitled to a week of study break before the dreaded N's. However , if you are unlucky, you'll still have to go back to school for extra lessons. Which i think its totally useless as the teachers wont give a shit bout you even though they want you to go back. Okay, enough bout this shit.
Prelims were alright, for best three i had six points. aiight, gonna stop now. lost all mood to do anything at all.

First and foremost, a very merry and whacky birthday wish to my grandpops who just turned 70 years younger! heh! =D zacky vegetarian foods over at kallang. Sumptous and definitely exquisite foods. Food good enough for kings ;) that's if they're vegetarians too heh :D

the day was good. and so were you. ;) take great care now. catcha lata -peace and out

It's been awhile since I've made any effort to make an entry. But here's one anyways. I'm happy. Yesterday's tuition with Andrew was way phat. He taught me a couple of routines which I could use next friday. I've decided on one already. It's a combo of juggling, scratches and beat manipulations. Shit, I seriously need tonnes of practice.

"I don't practise alot, I just play around whenever I see a set. And whatever routine I do now, on the spot, I can only do it once. Because I forget it the next morning." -Andrew C. -Such inspirational words from the wizard himself. No sarcasm intended, but I find it somewhat assuring. Heh maybe that's because I don't do much practise and I play shit.

Gonne go spin some more right now. I don't wanna disappoint Andrew, and my friends. ;) Hope I make top 3. That's all I ask for.

Anyone needs invites? Let me know early. 1st Ocktober, Vestax Extravaganza @ Zouk's Phuture. Be there or be square.

Images courtesy of JosephG.Avies and Nokia 7610. Connecting People.  

Fcuk the DJ 

Pu- Pump- P- P- P-um- Pump- it up! 

Scccccc-rrrr-aaaaa-ttttt-cccccc-hhhhh! 

A little flare :) 

A usual practise session at AudioSports: Warming up with Klever's Ammo records and Q-bert's DirtStyle Shampoo Edition breaks.  

Ian, brother. We're all gonna miss you. Don't cha dare forget any of us man. We eagerly anticipate your return! Take care while you're in london and be cool bro. Peace- 

The envelope =D The resemblance!! 

Yes Ian, it seriously looks like you! 

The picture on the envelope is Ian. Serious! Looks very much like him! Hence the photo hahas! 

This is Ian, a friend, a brother. Left for England 23/09/04, 10pm Singapore Time. Boy oh boy, we're all gonna miss you !  

uh, tiara's back from Hiatus now. but hey, there aint any difference right?as many of you think that this blog belongs to John Ji only. Haha. i dont blame you guys.
These past few days or should i say weeks have been very bittersweet. I just dont seem to understand myself anymore.Insecurities and low-self esteem have been making me feel worse.To make things worse,it was the prelims week. Lets just say that i have this feeling that i will screw my prelims real bad.But that aint gonna stop me. N'levels, it will be the time when i'll prove to everyone that im can get good grades. i can make it to Sec 5. Yes, my future is blurred. i have no idea what is gonna happen. but all i can say now is that my priority is to do well for my N's , get on to sec 5 , do well for the O's and get into a good course in Poly or make it into a Jc.Its time for me to stop being such a childish bitch and grow up.
Yeah, on a lighter note, i passed paper one for art. which is the canvas.Paper 2 is gonna be a killer. ahhh wells, thats life for you. Gonna go now.

Was watching Opera. Heard Alicia Keys sing her thang.Was moved by the two songs she sang.

Fallin'
I keep on fallin’
In love
With you
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes you make me blue
Sometimes I feel good
And times I feel used
Lovin' you darlin’
Makes me so confused

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Oh, oh , I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure
And cause me so much pain
Just when I think
I've taken more than would a fool
I start fallin’ back in love with you

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Oh baby
I,I,I, I’m fallin’
I,I,I, I’m fallin’
Fall

I keep on
Fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you

Im fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I loved you

I'm fallin’
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I loved you

If i aint got You
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what’s within
And I been there before but that’s life’s a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don’t want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.

This feeling, of imperfection fills me. Undoubtedly, it seems, that my world is slowly going downhill. What reasons, you ask? I have no idea. If I did, I would've solved it on my own. Is the reason to live, only for a degree? A peice of paper? An educational certificate that doesn't really ensure your path to a great future. But still, people mug hard and even go ballistic sometimes just for that very piece of, paper. Me? I... guess I'm just one of those, who scrape through in life, wandering around aimlessly, searching for that "purpose".

I realised that my posts nowdays are somewhat negative. =( This'll all change. Gimme a few days. I'll be fyne by then. =)

I feel so lethargic =P Just got up. An apology shout out to Joshua and Dominic; Sorry guys woke up late.... Couldn't join you guys for the carnival, million apologies!

Anyways, just ordered $90 worth of Pizza Hut and KFC. Darn, I'm so dead. Hahas, not my cash anyways, dad's VISA. =D

Last night was phat. Had a 4-way Dj battle session along with Dj Eliptical (Sani), Dj Inquisitive (Leon), Dj Jo, and myself. Learnt a few tricks from Dj Eliptical and received a few advices. Million thanks to DjEliptical ! Spent half my day over at AudioSports. And yes, music is as important to me as my studies are. You gotta have the same passion for music as you have for me in order for us to work out. That's one important thing as it is. Crucial. Integral. That's one more part of me you'll soon find out. I'm treating Dj-ing a serious business; Life. Yes, Life. -Bon Jovi * It's my life-

I knew that one day it this would've all been found. Chanced upon, whatever you call it. I can't explain how I feel towards this matter. I'm lost, confused, but I keep my optimism up towards this. I'm hoping for the future. I need some time, just being me. Neither faults of any kind directed to anyone or any party. I just really need to sort it all out. I'm complicated. I'm not easy to understand, to comprehend. But I guess that's just me. -Out.

Last night was phat. Had a 4-way Dj battle session along with Dj Eliptical (Sani), Dj Inquisitive (Leon), Dj Jo, and myself. Learnt a few tricks from Dj Eliptical and received a few advices. Million thanks to DjEliptical ! Spent half my day over at AudioSports. And yes, music is as important to me as my studies are. You gotta have the same passion for music as you have for me in order for us to work out. That's one important thing as it is. Crucial. Integral. That's one more part of me you'll soon find out. I'm treating Dj-ing a serious business; Life. Yes, Life. -Bon Jovi * It's my life-

I knew that one day it this would've all been found. Chanced upon, whatever you call it. I can't explain how I feel towards this matter. I'm lost, confused, but I keep my optimism up towards this. I'm hoping for the future. I need some time, just being me. Neither faults of any kind directed to anyone or any party. I just really need to sort it all out. I'm complicated. I'm not easy to understand, to comprehend. But I guess that's just me. -Out.

I'm so affected by it. Seriously. Things don't always go the way they seem to. I was so close, just so close. Then again, there are always misconceptions. I don't know how to solve em anymore. And I'm so tired of explaining. Somehow it all feels like a mirage. But heck it, who'd understand anyways? I guess people sometimes see you differently, superficially. If only they knew, what was inside, before they decided what the outside was. Nothing profound. Just a vague expression to an immaculate question. I supposed everything's solved now, with the imposed silenced. I shall be grateful, if that's what you want me to feel. I meant no harm. I came in peace. And, since the decision to be still, have been made, of what use am I here, trying so hard to express. I shall be resilent and hope for the worse. -Out. Yea, first depressing post from me. Hope it did good. Because I really am.

Heh picasa's really easy to use! Yea, I know, I'm slow. But hey! These shots were taken using a phone :P 7610 =D 

I know it might be a turn-on to some certain individuals, but seriously, I think this shot has surely got an artistic side to it, doesn't it? =D 

heh but she's happy here ;) 

She's pissed with me taking her photo =P heh toooo late! it's here now :D 

A few things that I MUST have completed by the year 2004

1. Set up my own business
2. Get a Lap Top
3. Build body mass ; 65Kg (I'm only 60kg now, featherweight :< )
4. Strive for Top 3 in the Vestax Competition ; Amateur-class

Yup, these are my wishes. =)

What are you afraid of?

MCT (Micro Controllers Technology) was pretty okay. Think I'd most likely fare a PASS :( And yea, probably a FAIL. After the test, went over to Parkway Parade to meet my mom. Followed by the purchase of some personal toiletries. =P All in all, it was a good day. Hope tomorrow will be a better one. Next stop, Logic Design. =(

Starting the mid-semestral test week with Engi. Math is way wrong. Like WRONG. How do you expect the student to concentrate on scoring for his/her other subjects if you totally devastate their morale by setting such a screwed up paper! I expect myself to score no more than 40. Yea, a meagre FORTY over one fucking hundred. *wide smile* Looks like I'm totally screwing with my life. =( But I wanna prove everyone wrong! I'm not a letdown! So maybe I didn't do well this time, but count on this, I'm gonna be better the next time. And I'll prove that. Just you wait. Okays, on the brighter side of life, Miss T. brought me intriguingly and delectable Mezza9 chocolate-covered with different fillings mind you, moon cakes. She's just so sweet, isn't she? Sometimes, life can be bitter-sweet. And bitter's just me not studying hard enough, and sweet is when your gurlfriend brings you nice stuff just to cheer you up. :D Thanks Missy. =P Your sweet gesture is definitely and deeply appreciated. ;) Hope the dinner we had with my parents made you feel better. Fish. =D

Make it a double spontaneous cheeky burger please, with extra pleasure sauces . Extra cheesy and double petties. =D hahahs. something's wrong with me. To have said something like that here. Fcuk, i'm out.

Angels Or Devils by Dishwalla (Album; Opaline)

this is the last time

that I'm ever gonna come here tonight

this is the last time - I will fall

into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you

I can see the love in you

but fighting all the demons will take time

it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us

are we ever

are we ever gonna learn to fly

the devils they burn inside of us

are we ever gonna come back down

come around

I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time

that I'm ever gonna give in tonight

are there angels or devils crawling here?

I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you

and I can see the love in you

and fighting all the demons will take time

it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us

are we ever

are we ever gonna learn to fly

the devils they burn inside of us

are we ever gonna come back down - come around

I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

if I was to give in - give it up

- and then

take a breath - make it deep

cause it might be the last one you get

be the last one that could make us cold

you know that they could make us cold

I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

All rights reserved®

Mid-semestrals in less than 2 days and I'm fucking around the computer and over at Audio. I guess music's really important to me now. Even when I'm fucking shitty, I still head over. Music is like a drug. It lives without you, but you can NEVER live without it. Anyways, yesternight was to be remembered. Battle frenzy. Jo and Andre are placing their bets on me getting into top 3. Yea like I will. I think it's bottom 3 more likely. But who cares. I'm just gonna go and strut my music. It's what I want people to listen. My music. It's just like composing. You'll want your listeners to know that it was YOU who composed the tunes and all, not any other. Individual. That's what I strive for. To be an individual. In music of course. ;) I miss ya'll... Heh enough of ego. I just figured that my new hair cut makes me look really gay. Hah.. Dreams dreams dreams. Sweet dreams are made of ? =D Got myself a nokia 7610. I totally REGRET it. Heh but cool. Sleek design, so it'll pass. Be part of the moment.

Its time for Tiara to be on Hiatus.
No worries gurls, John Ji will still be updating this blog.

Fuck.

Heh =D Caught White Castle wit Miss T., Josh and Dom today over at Lido. Fuck man. Learnt new fucking words. "CongratuFUCKINGlations" and a phrase tinted with indian accent; "Tank yew, cum again" . Everyone should catch it. Thay should make it PG even though there were parts where nudity (pronounced u-ni-ty; coutesy of joshua's express english class)was involved. But still, it was "terrifuckic". It was worth the money. Dope I'd say. Heh was great hanging out with my bros after such a long time. Oh! And I signed up for my 'Basic Theory' test today wit the guys too, except that Dom's already into advanced heh =( It'll be due on the eleventh of Ocktober. And I fucking forgot to buy the theory books! Hah! Man oh man, I think I should really watch my mouth. Too many 'F' words shooting out in just one sentence. If TV were to film me, (which they never will) the whole line would be like *beep* *bleepe* *beep* ya *beep* you *beep*. Yea, you get the drift. Hah! =P Who fucking cares anyways. Harold and Kumar, of Whitecastle. Kudos to you two =D Fuck you. Haha but anyways, I enjoyed myself, really. Sometimes you'd just wish, wish. Fucking WISH. Ha, fuck it. FUCK. I'm fucking out.

*Disclaimer: If you feel queasy about the language on this blog, please close the browser and view it 7 days later. =D

"Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)"

Whoa oh oh

Ooh hooh

No No No

[Verse 1:]

See, I dont know why I liked you so much

I gave you all, of my trust

I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain

Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]

You thought, you could

Keep this shit from me, yeah

Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story

Ya played me, ya even gave him head

Now ya askin for me back

Ya just another act, look elsewhere

Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care

You could ask anyone, I even said

Ya were my great one

Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.

It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

[Until the end]

lalalalalalala! x) New skin in da house ya'll!

These are the slipmats I wanna get from dmcworld.com (Design will change everyday. Total of three different designs I'm storming over. Can't really decide which one though. This is the first design.) =D *asks* "Dad, may I have your AMEX or MasterCard please? I need to get some stuffs ;) " haha :D

[John Ji]

I'm tired. =P I wanna join in-line hockey. I'm set. Thanks Ian!

Anyways, Phuture, friday. Anyone? *beams*